i wish to be a stone

My blood curdled... my heart was broken... i wish to be hided... i wish to be a stone...
Nothing will come without something leaving~ that's called revolution~ people always want to get more for free... that's impossible. On the other hand, if you lose something... a new treasure is coming!
that's what i have to tell myself...
but the treasure may be not what you want...
If i always hanging around with girls, tell them coloured jokes, or stay in their rooms after midnight... but i love none of them... i just play... will i be considered to be a playboy?
i don't want to be... so i won't...
what i want... is only peaceful life...like a stone
my dream~ is to be a scientist with a small group travel to the huge grassland in Africa... to research for the lions, pumas, and elephants... mostly... to forget the real world i am living in...
it's too complicated for me...