no title because i'm silly!

It is a really bad weather today~ dark outside for a long time. The cloud looks heavily, and i don't like cold air. maybe i am a sensitive person so that my emotion is very bad. i feel that i become smaller and smaller, and nobody cares me. i can hardly say a word outloud, the only thing i did in class is nod or shake my head. that's too bad... i hate myself, but i hardly change... what can i do to make me happy? the surroundings influenced me too much now, i have to make a change!
This afternoon i attended to a lecture. that's a match class. the teacher of this class is a young gentleman. he speaks quickly so i have to pay all my attention on listensing his words and follow his steps. but the content of the class is very easy... that because i've learnt some knowledge of this class in high school. after listensing the lecture i feel better. Suddenly, i am in doubt that why i am so lazy... i don't have a good emotion probably just because i don't want to work... so that i found many reason that made me do the work later, but eventually i have to do it by myself... am i a fool?