i told myself: just say something...

walking though a scilent street, looking at the dark sky, i feel afraid and silly, i wonder that something can help me..... that's the feeling in my mind, although i'm sitting down in my warm room, faced to a beatuiful screen on my computer...
i've no idea why i fall down so quickly, i have to say, that's a accident! that's a totally accident! that is a nightmare! Somebody really helped me a lot, or maybe i'll lose most of the happiness in my life. BUt now...i'm still struggling, i'm still suffering..... and i'm stilli missing.....
the sun will raise up in every morning, i'm telling myself that truth every moment. how come to beat me down just because some simple unfaithful marks? i'm still stand, but with only bones but meat or blood. i was begging some help these days, but that cannot really help me.........
Work hard with myself~ got the feeling of a "good" student...although i'm not...
The situation is i have to do that, i must do that, i wanna get a good mark, then i can study in university...
like the sun have to raise every morning....

Work work

i've no idea why these days my mark so sucks..........i've never faced this kind of situation, that i got a 50 something in both Intensive and Extensive. i deleted my character who have got a full level tens of excellent items in world of warcraft, just for make me study harder. but still, not much help. last week i haven't played any games in weekdays, and spent all my time in study but i still cannot finish all the work that i should do. Study is just like a road without a end, i can only walk on it hardly and wishes to get some profits form the long journey. i can not give up every kinds of game completely, but how can i pass that *in' Leap? i got every idea that the teacher taught me, but i can't get a good mark after that... i feel so angry that why i put almost all my energy in study but the marks are so low!! i am confused that what did i do made me backslide? there's a kind of hate began to show in my brain, the hate of study. why i worked a lot, got a little.... Last week i never came back room on time, because i always had to do some extra group after classes in the library. now i just hope that i can get a good mark on this theme... and i am putting all my efforts on it....

Glenbow Museum

Yesterday all leap 3 students went to the Glenbow Museum to do a visit. As Pat said, that's a part of our work in theme 2. i feel that's a good place for a visit or a journey, but not to do some work.....we got lots of pieces of sheet which contained uncountable questions needed answer. but we only have about 1 hour and a half to finish them for group a. that's impossibel..... so nobody in group a finished them. and i don't think that's a good idea to answer so many questions when the guild was speaking, the native music was playing, and the step is moving... cause if the guild say something, that's not polite to read the information on the small board and find out the answers and write them. Also, there're lots of information at the deeper side of the museum but we cannot came in because there's no time for us. i have to say that the museum is a place which was needed to spend a whole day to view and admire.
In the afternoon, we finished view the second part easily and get out earlier. i felt nothing to do further more, but i didn't want to go back to school. so Jamie and i was thinking of watching a movie. luckily, we found a place called "movie theather" in that museum and lots of people were coming in....so we went inside and found 2 seats. To my surprise, there wasn't a movie but a presentation of energy to the city teacher of Calgary! The audiences were all old women and men. i think they were the teachers of the high schools in calgary. we were the only 2 young people. The first discussion for us is "What made you lack of energy when you teaching your students". that's a really a funny presentation for us to listen and i felt a little sleppy when the presenter finished his speech. Then we came back to school.

I have to

i have to write something.....
there are so many people care me~ according to my blogs~ i can really see that~
i am so glad about that....thank you to you all~!
but still, indeed, that's a part of homework.....
i can really got something from writing the blogs~ but anyway, i don't have enough tiem...
why?
i am so bad that can not control myself to do something really important to me...
i love to chatting with my friends, still i spend too much time on games but less and less comunication with them. May be i just need someone... to accompany that i do not need always do everything myself.
is that a kind of selfish or ...?
it's bad...
i just need...to do some work that helpful to me.
i mean i have to...

another topic:
tomorrow is Valentine's day, happy valentine's day to everybody!!
sometimes i am thinking about find a girlfriend.....but everytime i still get confuse about that.......why people can not love each other naturlly? and every body can get a lover, then live a happy life without betrayed....or disagreement of each other...
Also, single is not bad for somebody^_^