4:37am... sleepy but cannot sleep...

darkness... night... although we just passed the longgest day of this year...
somebody's blog really touched me... who is a person i don't know... a love story...
suddendly... i wish to made a logo for myself...
but.... i am only the most normal person... i am nothing... i know nothing...
and i am losing one of my best friend...
People need to forget.... nothing lasts forever.... nothing everlasting....
except memory...
A status of a hero might be a sad story.... people walk though it... without even looking or thinking...
people only care themself...
everybody is the same at this point.... no exceptions....
Believe me... i have evidence but i don't wanna show now... i will.... but my point is:
Sun light.... holy light... will always change to the darkness... moonlight... and death wishes....
what should you do? what should i do?
Pray and take care... for our nations, communities, races...
and... be with honor of our belief...
forgeting... might be the best solution...

I am not myself

There's an old phrase from China which may be able to translate like:" the grape which you cannot eat is always sour"...
I'm trying my best to see the best part of a item... like critical strike 2% on a wrist...
i'm hating the shouting and laughing from the neighbor room!!!! especilly when they are playing cards...
The grape is always sour...
The black heart.... with blood... without ass... of my fury mind...
is blasting!!!
o...it's not correct...
f away from my fing blog if you're gussing my fing mind!!!
Pretending to be a @ needs capital too!
but i don't have any...
the only thing i can do... is blaming myself....
there is another thing i consider....
why can't i say some good stuff on the blog........?
People need mercy... care... and encourage...
when they do not want to do their homework:O...

Tried weekend

Yesterday we went to the COP~ that's a beautiful park which built for winter Olympic in 1988. i got up at 7:00, had a shower then walked to the brandwood c-train station. Then we took the bus 408 and got that park at about 10:00. we played really happy there, and the grasslands, blue sky, and thoundsands of dandelions are really attracked my heart.
we played lifted chairs happily. the surroundings can be seen really well when we looked around on the chairs in the sky. breathing with the smell of grass, i felt the nature is touching me~
i could not stop laughing! that's amazed, althought i'm not that happy....
(2 days after)
after playing some games, i felt i'm needed to write something. time is limited, i have to achieve my goals in limited time. the marks have come out, i haven't pass any exams... so bad... so sad
whatever.... i'll put my effort on improving my grades.

time's up

i have so much homework this week... so much~ but i don't need to finish them today... This situation gives me a invisible pressure, i am such a lazy person that i don't wish to do that work which is not needed immediately.
The sun is shinning outside~ it's beautiful. it looks bright in Canada at this summer afternoon. that's a little strange for me, it should be darker in my hometown at this time. but it's lovely...
Suddenly, i feel some tired. i wish to catch up my feelings, but i have nothing to realize. everything goes smoothly, step by step... i just need to follow the wind, and carry some seeds to send to grow....
i am losing my enthusiasm... why?
where can i get it again?