the term is nearly over~

i have to say, sadlly, the term is nearly over~ yeah!! it will be really good news for me if i pass all the courses. then i can begin my university courses... which is not fun. i think i'll miss this course sometimes.... it gave me a lot of fun, and more sadness or anxcious. whatever... everytime when people losing something, they begin to consider the value of those things.
acturally, i don't know how to deal my situation except finish the work that teathers gave me... i am so confused about everything around me... i'll never know what a person exactly is, or what is he or she wanting...
i still worried about if i can pass all my leap courses. that's really important to me. everybody is the same at this point.
but everytime when i begini to work, i still cannot totally concentrate on the work. i always think something that cannot make me happy... do not know why... maybe because i'll be at home soon.
everything has a end... a friend gave me a website which can show how much time you have in your life... it told me i'll live until 2060....hehe~ that's might only be a black joke that the webmaster made, but i still begin to thought about what should i do in my last years.... but there's nothing came out...

i wish to be a stone

My blood curdled... my heart was broken... i wish to be hided... i wish to be a stone...
Nothing will come without something leaving~ that's called revolution~ people always want to get more for free... that's impossible. On the other hand, if you lose something... a new treasure is coming!
that's what i have to tell myself...
but the treasure may be not what you want...
If i always hanging around with girls, tell them coloured jokes, or stay in their rooms after midnight... but i love none of them... i just play... will i be considered to be a playboy?
i don't want to be... so i won't...
what i want... is only peaceful life...like a stone
my dream~ is to be a scientist with a small group travel to the huge grassland in Africa... to research for the lions, pumas, and elephants... mostly... to forget the real world i am living in...
it's too complicated for me...

i wish to be simple

people need responding...
i had a bad weekend last week~ really terrible~ i need to pay my deposit fee of my apartmentt in Augest emergency, but that that company only requires bank draft. i don't have enough money on my bankcard so i went to downtown and try to get out my money from my Visa card and save them to my bankcard~ but it i can't do that!! BMO have no connection with the Visa company~ but the other related banks do not offer me that service! i tryed several banks but no one can help me....i despaired then i came back to school~ fortunately, some friends lent me those money and i hurry back to the bank, but the bank closed earlier because of the stampede! then the hailstorm came.... i have to wait at the c-train station for a long time.... when i came back, the apartment fee office called me that they need my money or they would give my room to other people.... finally, we came to an agreement that i had to give them my bank draft before 1:00 pm of the next day. finally i did that...
but still... i can't get a good mood...
Pressures are everywhere...

Good weekend

i just experienced good weekend. some friends and i played jigsaw puzzle game at friday night. that's really a wonder puzzle game. it is solid which means three-dimensional. it was like hundreds of pieces lying on a big box at first, but funally we built up a church. my friends and i played basketball game tonight. that's really funny, but a lot of mosquitos made us crazy! they're like thousands of battleplane hitting our body... i killed 3 mosquitos. 2 of them were killed when they were landing on my arms, the other one flight into mhy mouth straightly!!! i nearly ate it but finally i spurt it out.... after those unhappy experience, we got back the dorm. then everybody wished a shower, but there are only 2 place in the bathroom we can use. one of them even cannot serve us warm water... i wait in the bathroom without wearing anything except a small underwear for a long time, that's really made me uncomfortable...hehe~ anyway, i had some fun.
this is might be the only one i talked about something happy in my blogs... acturally i am so sad that i cannot even think about it... everything will be past... and i am trying not to write something like a poem as scott said~ lol